Try Again

When you said, “I’m a failure,” 

It’s not true at all. 

Why?

Because simply by saying you’ve failed, you’ve admitted you attempted…

And anyone who attempts is not a failure.

Hollows beneath her eyes

She doesn’t know how to deal with this…

She doesn’t know how to talk to him…

She loves him still…

He’s been an ass…

She shouldn’t love him…

She’s so stupid for loving him…

She should try her best to forget about him…

Does he really love her?

Maybe.

Questions of a dying heart

Why does he love them so much?
Why others are so loved?
Why others are always taken care of?
Why have I always been neglected?
Why does he need to hurt me?
Why do I need to get hurt?
Are you happy that I’m sad?
Is my grief and sadness is your happiness?
Do you not pity me?
What have I done to punish me like this?
If love hurts like this…
I don’t want love anymore.

Breaking point 

There’s a time when you need a break…

A time when your mind is full of ugly ghosts and unwanted memories…

Sometimes you’ll think that your coping mechanism is absolutely fine…

But you don’t notice that somewhere along the way, things are getting sideways…

You’ll get lost in that healing process…

Then suddenly it’s not healing anymore…

It’s an obsession…

Enthrallment…

Control…

It’ll only lead you in a circle…

Constantly returning to the pain of the past…

Never ending fighting. 

Lost In The Sun

Those words are so familiar to her…

It’s so cruel for her subconscious…

He was her sun…

Shining and brilliant…

But this is really too much, it’s hurting her inside and out…

She misses her sun…

But he’s cruel…

So he lost the light…

It’s not nice anymore…

She feels that they’re not anything to each other—not anymore.