Romantic nap

I dreamt of him…

He came up behind me,

He wrapped his arms around my waist,

I closed my eyes,

Thought about his body,

Naked under his clothes pressing into me,

Naked under mine,

Then I turned my head to look up at him,

He kissed me,

I twisted around in his arms,

We were facing each other,

Then I threw my arms around his neck…

Wow! That was beautiful,

I’m still floating now,

Gosh, how do I function when I feel like this?

How do I comb my hair?

Or drive my car?

I’m too delirious to work. Lol!😂

Advertisements

Reckless Twirl 

That feeling…

Like every organ in my body switched places…

I didn’t want to…

But I found it arresting…

I felt a current coursing…

And it was ripping out of control inside of me…

What was it?!?

I don’t know🙈

But it was like my heart landed on Jupiter. 

Whoah!

Man, that was the dorkiest yet sexiest moment of my life😁❤️

Uh-oh

He asked, “Still thinking about him?”

I answered, “mhmm”

“Look, I think his charms had worn off cos I’m sure I’m more charming than him” then he chuckled. 

Blood rushes to my cheeks. He was staring at me…I can feel it. 

“I wanna sing with you tomorrow night, please.” He said. 

“Why?” My voice kinda showed a subtle panic is taking over my body. 

“Cos I want to sing this particular song for you, and I want you to feel the lyrics of it…cos it’s for you.” He said. 

“I can’t help it.” He whispered.

Ugh, I can’t help it either. 

Bedazzled

Listening to our duet…

I feel like the roof of my car flies off, the entire walls of this car park collapse, imagining that a group of robotic men clapping together, and a heavy rain overflows the car park that it sweeps me away—ugh! Yeah! He’s that freaking good😂😂🙌

Really?!?

Happy Sunday!!! (With an inappropriate morning thoughts😂)

Thinking of him…

With his smile the size of the continental United States…

Does he really smile to everyone like that? Uhmm, I don’t think so (and nah, he’s not a wingnut lol!😂)

His moves are really catching.

Ugh! And now I’m thinking what it might be like to properly (yes properly🙊😂)kiss him…I mean the real kiss, ugh! Can’t explain further. 

Haaaa! I’m drowning in this new un-L.A.-like problem at (Sheesh! Wth, really?!?) this early?!?

Crazy 

Today is one of those ordinary days till someone made it a rare day…

Having him next to me at lunch was kinda awkward, 

But the way he took care of me made me realized how much I used to take the simple things for granted.

After the main course, he offered me a chocolate cake…I took a huge bite 😂😂, and he was like, “wow!” Haaaa!

One of our friends said, “you guys look so cute!”

Then he whispered in my ear…

“You look so beautiful, just like yesterday and every other day I’ve known you”

I’ve melted…

I can feel the longing…

I can feel that he’s wishing he can do more for/to me…

It’s kinda overwhelming…

But I’m happy that he’s giving me this attention…

I’m happy that he’s here for me. 

Desire

The fact that he want me that much is really surprising🙈

And what’s even more surprising is how blatant he is about it…

He said…

“You still love him…I understand, 

But things will eventually change over time.

And I can’t wait for that one day you’ll be mine. “

He told me that he’s being patient. That he can’t let the fear of not having me throw him into a panic mode, cos desperation will only make him less attractive lol!😂 

Well, he’s doing it right…

He’s calm and confident. 

He said that I should remember how much he loves me. Yes, he said he loves me so much. 🙈❤️

Take it easy

“Hey, don’t worry about tomorrow,

We have today to enjoy with.

Right now is all that matters for now,

Right now, we’re both here to stay.”

I will continue to admire you, 

I will continue loving you…

I will continue appreciating the moment I’m with you. 

I’m quieting the noisiest part of my brain…the part where I’m anxious about our future…

I just wanna continue finding happiness in whatever I’m doing right now…

You make me happier than I’ve ever been. 

Ugh, can’t find a word that would capture how happy I felt with you…

But yes, my life is pretty good.

And that’s because of you. 

Lost without you (by Robin Thicke)

This song 😍❤️…what a beautiful song.

He said he wanna sing this song with me, 

Not gonna lie, it got me so excited. 

I love watching him when he sang the song…

I watched him from the beginning till the end of the song…

Trying to memorize the slope of his nose, the shape and curves of his cheeks, the beautiful shape of his lips…

I realized that he’s one of the most gorgeous boys, aaaand he picked me😱🙊

Wow, it’s really flattering🙈❤️. 

After he finished singing, he sat next to me. And puts one earbud in my ear while the other in his…And said, “this song is for you, thanks for inspiring me everyday.”

He’s so romantic. 

My fears and worries were gone. I can’t believe that a guy like him exist, a guy who doesn’t get freaked out by strong emotions cos he’s pretty emotional and romantic himself. 

He said, “This song is beautiful like you.”

I melted again. I didn’t reply. I was speechless. 

Then he said, “I don’t know what exact words to tell you, and how to tell you about how I feel about you. So I always try to find a song to help me.”

I said “thank you,” and I told him that I really appreciate his words, love and care. That if it’s just easy for me to give him my heart, I gonna do it in a heartbeat. 

He said I’m the sweetest person he’ve ever known. Like really?!? Am I that sweet?!?🙈❤️

He asked me to put my head on his chest, 

I ignored…

Gosh, hearing his breathing while listening to the music will definitely kill me🙈❤️

I felt his fingers through my hair, then he whispered my name…

I was like, “yeah?”

He said, “I love you”

Oh God, I wish it’s easy for me to answer that back…

I just looked at him. He was glowing. Ugh, just looking at him was kinda breathtaking…

How could this feel so good?

C’mon July 

June isn’t a bad month for me,

I’d never felt more alive.☺️❤️

But I’m excited for July…

I have a feeling that it’s a better month for me,

Probably a lot of falling in love,

Maybe griefs are present too, 

But healing and more adjusting will be much better.