I love him…

A love with intimacy…

A love with passion…

A very powerful kind of love.

Trust him again?

I would have sworn I couldn’t…

But he’s trying…

He’s trying to gain it back…

He got sorry—really, really sorry…

The words always came out of his mouth, followed by all the efforts with the acknowledgment that it was really his fault…

He received my emotions…

Yes, there are days when I felt disgust, really sad, stupid, humiliated, embarrassed…

But he never hurries the process…

He’s allowing me to ask questions—ask them again and again, and again…

I’m sure he’s not enjoying it, but he’s trying to endure it—and yeah, he always answers it…

He’s practicing truth telling, even in the little things…

He’s becoming more consistent, and I can feel the want of showing me…

His actions starting to match his words…

He’s becoming transparent in any way needed—or even ways I didn’t need…

He’s trying to fill the wounds with truth and love…

I can’t perceive what will happen…

But I’m hoping and I’m positive that slowly, I’ll learn to trust again…

Trust the man I want to share my life with. 

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